Inspired

I was reading a friend's blog where she describes her quirks, the things she loves and loathes about herself.
So i have decided to do a bit of a download myself and see what this canvas presents.

My name is Trent
I love being Maori, i love playing the guitar but hate that im not as good as the music i know is inside of me.
I love John Mayer's music, and his personality.
I love old music that no one else knows, and i love finding people that know the same old songs i know.
I wish I could have been an All Black, Musician.
But love that i can be a follower of Christ.
I love and adore my parents, but am unable/unwilling to demonstrate it.
I love friends and worry they don't love me.
I am a romantic, the fibers so ingrained in my heart.
I have been heartbroken so many times.
I wouldn't trade that for the world
I have broken hearts, and i would cash all mine in for the healing of theirs.
I have loved unreservedly
Twice
I have not loved so since.
I feel i think to much
I think i don't feel enough
I take things too seriously
or too relaxed.
I'm obsessed with beauty in so many forms.
I am weak
But have been made strong, thousands of times before.
I have broken thousands more
I loved a girl, and never stopped
I became everything i hated
Twice
I am frail
I am strong
It seems I'm a paradox
I worry
I don't have all the answers, but want them
Theirs is music in me, greater than me, that i know needs to be released.

There is something brilliant in me, something powerful and wonderful, spectacular and horrifying inside.
There is a spark unlike any before it.
There is something different about me
I possess something great, and have a duty to all those around me, to let it shine so bright as to eclipse myself.
Till only he remains.

Im... confused
Im... a lover
Im... still confused